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A public service announcement of sorts.

Posted in Video games, writing with tags , , on February 3, 2012 by generatedanomaly

I’m not sure where to begin. The last couple weeks have been a bumpy ride, almost like someone forgot to post a warning. Something along the lines of “Some days it’s just easier to go to jail and pay your fine.” That’s how I operate in Skyrim most the time. I just pay the fine and move on with my day. Not that I’ve done anything in real life to warrant fine paying, so that just leaves me with this dull ache in my head and an overbearing desire to tell a lot of people to fuck off.

Deep down, I think I understand what the problem is. I’m working in the living room. And while I’m glad my boyfriend is letting me use his desktop, there’s still that sense of it not being my computer or my space. I’m floundering creatively, trying my hardest to make it work when what I really need is a new laptop and to get back into the office. I miss my space, my creative haven.

All right, I really need to put a few things down. Things that might eventually get me into trouble, but if I don’t they’ll fester inside and make the next incident worse. If nothing else, I’m excellent at internalizing anguish. Also, this is a note to the rest of the world…

There are a lot of people who work very hard to put merchandise on the floors at all the stores you like to shop at. Sometimes those people are also in charge of signing, pricing and running around to take care of customers. Often, they don’t have enough hours to do all the things they’re supposed to get done because someone up the corporate ladder at their company has decided that the job can be done in a quarter of the time it actually takes to do it correctly.

That being said, sometimes mistakes are made. But, for the love of God, try to be nice to the person. They might snap at you. They might overreact, their minds shuddering at thought of dealing with the fifth difficult customer in a row. It might not be intentional. They might be having a horrible day, and what you do next might actually have the power to make their day better. Retail is one of the hardest jobs to do. It’s just below food service. I’ve worked both, and the continuous flood of entitled expectation is enough to make you want to go on a murderous rampage some days. Those twenty-something “kids” working the register, they’re putting themselves through college. Some of us are there because the jobs we were promised by our professors and government aren’t within our financial means to move to.

I guess what I’m saying is don’t assume someone’s an invalid or beneath you because they’re working a minimum wage job. Odds are they’re working toward something else, something larger and more amazing that you’d ever guess by looking at them. And, while  I can’t speak for the rest of my retail brethren, I’ll do my best to be patient with you. Some days, I just need someone to meet me halfway.

Okay, PSA over, and you know what? I feel a lot better. Maybe today won’t suck as much. I’m putting my faith in you Friday, don’t disappoint me.

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I’m an adventurer. Or, I want to be.

Posted in Video games, writing with tags , , on December 30, 2011 by generatedanomaly

I’m not sure how the rest of the world is doing. I’ll assume about the same as it was the last time I checked. In desperate need of saving from itself with the possibility that things were going to get much worse before they got better. Because, that’s pretty much true.

I’ve been thinking. Dangerous, I know, but thoughts pop in and if I don’t pay they any attention they become ravenous eating other, possibly better ideas. So, I look at them, consider them and then I get off onto tangents. This, in case you were wondering, is a tangent. A large, never-ending (it will end) tangent fueled by pizza for breakfast and spending a touch too much time playing Dragon Age.

That last bit, that might become evident in a moment.

See, what I’ve been thinking is that the world would be a much better place if you could in fact make your fortune from adventuring. Certainly there are types of adventures to still be had, but I mean more of the save the world from some sort of impending doom (real doom mind you) with sword and shield and some skills. Maybe a little magic, or something resembling magic. Then, maybe, it wouldn’t matter as much where you came from as what you could do.

I know it would mean the destruction of society as we know it. I’m trying to find the downside. Really, there isn’t one, not when you’ve spent your whole life at the bottom. And certainly there’d be a scramble to fill whatever power vacuum was created. But, once the dust settled, it would be cool.

And, while I have thought about this a lot, I haven’t exactly thought out the repercussions. There’s some small part of my mind that knows it’s a bad plan. That’s why I’m a writer. I can make it not a bad plan. Things turn out all right… for most people… for the important people. Eventually.

I know what  it is, really, I missed my time. Or haven’t quite gotten to it yet. Hard to say. I just know that the moment I’m in feels rather paltry compared to what it could be. So, I suppose I’ll just go on writing in hopes that someday I’ll get to carry around a sword to slay something horrible. Like an arch demon or something. That’d be cool. Until the death starts. Then, not as cool.

I suppose I’ve gone on long enough with trivial things. I’ll find something constructive to do. Maybe finish the rewrite on this short story before I get into something else. It’s almost done. A solid hour will finish it. Just need to actually sit down and write instead of fidget and bounce about.

Sometimes we just need a couple days to regroup.

Posted in Projects, Video games, writing with tags on December 20, 2011 by generatedanomaly

I’m sure I did’t mention it here. I finished writing the zero draft for the third novel. Exciting stuff there. I took a short hiatus, also known as “put my brain and emotional status back together into some sort of jumble resembling a working mind.” During that time, I might have played Dragon Age II a little heavier than I would have otherwise.

And then I beat it. In one of the many millions ways that it might have ended. For the record, I’m a sap. I believe in fighting for the underdog, stopping those who might use or abuse power. And a certain Knight-Commander annoyed the shit out of me from the beginning. I might have sided with the mages. Or I did, because that’s pretty much how I roll. Yeah. Fighting for the little guy.

So, now I need to get back into writing mode. I started working on my next project yesterday morning. I already ripped the novel apart into the cases. I’ve changed the character dynamic. It’s going to be interesting to see where this goes, especially after taking out some of the useless crap. It was going to be a trunk novel. It was going to be something I never did anything with, but a thought wormed its way into my head and now I want to do something with it. And by something I mean treat every case as it’s own short story connected by the common thread of characters where consequences carry over, among other things.

It seems like a good idea. No idea how it’s going to pan out, but we’ll see. That’s pretty much how it is with every project. Not sure how it’s going to pan out. The end product is always difference from what I expect, even when I actually manage to adhere to my own outlines.

The I need to post more often post.

Posted in Office, Projects, Video games, writing on August 7, 2011 by generatedanomaly

I was doing so well for a while. Posting almost every day, sometimes there was even content other people might care about and not just me talking to myself. Which, I do like doing a little too much. I’m beginning to believe it’s a writer thing, or maybe just hoping it’s not a crazy thing. I’m pretty sure it’s not a crazy thing. I don’t hallucinate and I limit my drug intake to painkillers, caffeine and, on occasion, ethanol.

So, writer thing. Okay. Awesome. I like this plan.

Speaking of plans. I finished the novel the other day. I waded through the mires of post novel mental goo by playing a lot of Bioshock 2 and have come out the other side ready to create something new.

Step one, kill the fruit fly that decided to make my desk is base of operations. It is starting to annoy me more than I thought a small fly could. There’s dead fruit in the kitchen. Go that way. Leave me alone!

Step two, once I’ve cleaned the speck of blood off my hand, is to flesh out one of the short stories I edited earlier. It needs more. The ending was rushed. It’ll be fixed.

From there, continue my not quite so fruitful job search. Work on the bazillion other projects I want to get done and find something to put on the wall on the other side of the room. I turn around a lot and I want something to look at other than the green wall. Not that the paint color isn’t awesome. I like the color. I should. I picked it. But, I like to look at bright, creative things while I’m working. Or, at least something to break the monotony.

The other thing I’ve been working on is cleaning the office up. In the process I hung some plot maps up for stories that need to be finished. I had a finishing problem a few years back. I started all sorts of projects an never finished them. They’re good ideas, solid beginnings that need more with them to make them shine. Stories that need homes. That might be a good title for a short story collection. I’m keeping it. It’s mine.

I Feel like I Missed Something Important…

Posted in Life as it happens, Video games, writing on June 25, 2011 by generatedanomaly

Yesterday was fun. My first day with coffee in a week. I tore up the word count, made scenery my bitch and made progress where the day before felt stagnate. Then I played Arkham Asylum for seven hours.

It wasn’t my intention to play for seven hours. It just sort of happened. I went on a search for all the little hidden Riddler trophies and the upgrades. I was proud of myself for getting to most of them in a couple of buildings and for getting my gamer score over 2000.

I know, that’s not exactly a high number. But the only game I’ve played all the way through is Boarderlands. I even got some of the DLC finished. I’ll probably end up finishing Batman next week since my big time sinks into it are Thursday and Friday when my boyfriend is out of the house doing other nerd things.

So, it should be no surprise to anyone that I missed the announcement that New York approved the gay marriage bill. I have lived in this state my whole life. I have an Uncle who lives with his life partner (and has for as long as I can remember) so I have to say it’s about time. It always bothered me that if something happened to one of them the other wouldn’t  be allowed in the hospital room or allowed to make decisions. It’s like permanently being in the dating zone despite making the lifelong commitment to each other.

I’m glad our state finally did something right. Now, if you can just start spending money on education again, that’d be super. Not to lessen this moment at all. This is a grand moment and 28 days from now there will be even grander moments.

And for all you haters out there, first it’s called equality. You demand it for yourself. Let other people have it. Second, and no where near as important, this is a revenue stream. Think of all the marriage licenses, parties and other things attached to a wedding. All the things married couples buy, and then if you can’t get it through your head to allow someone the happiness you take for granted, at least look at it as a way to boost the economy.

Video Games as a Reward. This Might Work.

Posted in Nerd things, Video games, writing on June 22, 2011 by generatedanomaly

It’s a cool, breezy day promising thunderstorms and I am wearing my Doctor Who shirt. (It has the Tardis and underneath say “You never forget your first Doctor.” Coincidentally, Tennant.) I fell like I can take on anything right now. Even a massive word count that needs to get done. Or, Batman: Arkham Asylum.

I started playing the game the other day when I got frustrated with driving around LA. I last much longer with the driving than I thought I would, and got all the clues in the process of solving the case.

Anyway, Batman starts out a little cheesy. You’re really just moving the character forward for the first 10-15 minutes, but when shit hits the fan, it gets so much better. There was a part I played through yesterday afternoon that freaked me out at 4:00pm. It was a sunny day yesterday too. So, yeah, kudos to the game designers/writers.

Playing is my reward for hitting my word count goals. It keeps me from saying “I have all day to get those 2500 words down, I can take my time and mess around.” Now it’s more like, I want to play. Let’s get the writing done, now remember, good quality words, even if it is the zero draft.  It’ll be less to clean up later.

My adventure for the day starts with taking the boyfriend to class, then going to the bank. After that, I have a murder to solve. Then I can save people by running around in a bat costume. It’s nice to have a plan.

Gaming and Leveling

Posted in Video games, writing on June 13, 2011 by generatedanomaly

After a good weekend of lazing about and driving a little too much, Monday has greeted us with iron gray overcast skies. The temperature is within the range of comfortable and there’s much work to be done.

Yesterday I found myself trying to transfer files to the newer x-box but not being able to find a large enough thumb drive. So, instead, I started LA Noire over. Seemed like the thing to do at the time. Of course, I did a better the second time around. But that’s almost always the case.

The reason for the file transfer is we’re planning on going down to one x-box. We haven’t played at the same time in quite a while. I think I’m done with MMOs again, for now anyway. I’ve reached a point where I really dislike being grouped with someone randomly and I’ve realized that I’m horrible at all the end game shit. Leveling is the fun part for me.  Not the hours of grinding with no reward to get the shiny equipment so I can keep grinding for no reason. Give me XP and a little bar that goes up while it’s happening. Or something.

I don’t have time to play today. I’m constructing a schedule for the rest of my summer. It’ll be a mess of self-imposed deadlines that will need to be kept if I’m ever going to make it as a writer. There are magazines to submit shorts to, projects to get done, novels to finish writing… I guess it might just be enough to keep me out of trouble.