Archive for December, 2011

I’m an adventurer. Or, I want to be.

Posted in Video games, writing with tags , , on December 30, 2011 by generatedanomaly

I’m not sure how the rest of the world is doing. I’ll assume about the same as it was the last time I checked. In desperate need of saving from itself with the possibility that things were going to get much worse before they got better. Because, that’s pretty much true.

I’ve been thinking. Dangerous, I know, but thoughts pop in and if I don’t pay they any attention they become ravenous eating other, possibly better ideas. So, I look at them, consider them and then I get off onto tangents. This, in case you were wondering, is a tangent. A large, never-ending (it will end) tangent fueled by pizza for breakfast and spending a touch too much time playing Dragon Age.

That last bit, that might become evident in a moment.

See, what I’ve been thinking is that the world would be a much better place if you could in fact make your fortune from adventuring. Certainly there are types of adventures to still be had, but I mean more of the save the world from some sort of impending doom (real doom mind you) with sword and shield and some skills. Maybe a little magic, or something resembling magic. Then, maybe, it wouldn’t matter as much where you came from as what you could do.

I know it would mean the destruction of society as we know it. I’m trying to find the downside. Really, there isn’t one, not when you’ve spent your whole life at the bottom. And certainly there’d be a scramble to fill whatever power vacuum was created. But, once the dust settled, it would be cool.

And, while I have thought about this a lot, I haven’t exactly thought out the repercussions. There’s some small part of my mind that knows it’s a bad plan. That’s why I’m a writer. I can make it not a bad plan. Things turn out all right… for most people… for the important people. Eventually.

I know what  it is, really, I missed my time. Or haven’t quite gotten to it yet. Hard to say. I just know that the moment I’m in feels rather paltry compared to what it could be. So, I suppose I’ll just go on writing in hopes that someday I’ll get to carry around a sword to slay something horrible. Like an arch demon or something. That’d be cool. Until the death starts. Then, not as cool.

I suppose I’ve gone on long enough with trivial things. I’ll find something constructive to do. Maybe finish the rewrite on this short story before I get into something else. It’s almost done. A solid hour will finish it. Just need to actually sit down and write instead of fidget and bounce about.

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Memories of Christmas

Posted in Uncategorized with tags on December 24, 2011 by generatedanomaly

I went to see my parents for Christmas Eve. My brother actually came home, so we were all in one spot for the first time in a year. It was fantastic, if only because it doesn’t happen anywhere near often enough. But, it also got me thinking of Christmas and my memories. 

There was the year my Dad actually got a deer that season and used the hooves to make a trail in front of our house. We stepped out into the snowy morning to find the trail, properly spaced and everything. I figured out the reality before he did it, but I still appreciated the attempt and almost found myself believing again.

I need to preface the next part by saying I’ve always been too observant and smart for my own good. It was proven when I was eight. Dad wrote all the tags for the presents that year, probably because it was the first year Mom worked away from home. Anyway, me being me, I noticed that Santa and Dad had the same handwriting. I might have pointed it out, and I might have been told how life works. In a way, it made me appreciate my parents more and how much Mom when through to get our presents. 

Then there was the year that my Uncle gave me a present that I couldn’t open until Christmas because it went with one of the presents Mom and Dad got for me. I waited. It was a collection of premade slides to go with my microscope. 

This year will be just my boyfriend and me for Christmas. There will be drinking and video games and food of some sort. It will be small and simple, but it will be a good Christmas because it’s ours. That’s the important part. It’s ours.

Happy Christmas, or whatever your holiday of choice is. May the season bring you joy and good times with friends and family. 

Sometimes we just need a couple days to regroup.

Posted in Projects, Video games, writing with tags on December 20, 2011 by generatedanomaly

I’m sure I did’t mention it here. I finished writing the zero draft for the third novel. Exciting stuff there. I took a short hiatus, also known as “put my brain and emotional status back together into some sort of jumble resembling a working mind.” During that time, I might have played Dragon Age II a little heavier than I would have otherwise.

And then I beat it. In one of the many millions ways that it might have ended. For the record, I’m a sap. I believe in fighting for the underdog, stopping those who might use or abuse power. And a certain Knight-Commander annoyed the shit out of me from the beginning. I might have sided with the mages. Or I did, because that’s pretty much how I roll. Yeah. Fighting for the little guy.

So, now I need to get back into writing mode. I started working on my next project yesterday morning. I already ripped the novel apart into the cases. I’ve changed the character dynamic. It’s going to be interesting to see where this goes, especially after taking out some of the useless crap. It was going to be a trunk novel. It was going to be something I never did anything with, but a thought wormed its way into my head and now I want to do something with it. And by something I mean treat every case as it’s own short story connected by the common thread of characters where consequences carry over, among other things.

It seems like a good idea. No idea how it’s going to pan out, but we’ll see. That’s pretty much how it is with every project. Not sure how it’s going to pan out. The end product is always difference from what I expect, even when I actually manage to adhere to my own outlines.

The random musings of a girl who’s starting to feel her age.

Posted in Nerd things, writing with tags , , on December 13, 2011 by generatedanomaly

I remember not that long ago when 28 seemed like an eternity away. It was strange and exotic, that section of the late twenties where you’re still young enough to party with the college kids, but old enough to feel every bad decision you make the next morning. In a lot of ways the last two months feels like that, the waking up sore for no good reason and finding random bruises but not quite remembering where they came from.

And, I wish I could say they were from something awesome. I wish I could say I did things like so many other writers do. I don’t run, let alone five miles. I think I would die if I tried. Oh, I could work up to it, eventually. But it’s that process that would leave me aching and I  might not see it through.

Not that I don’t go to the gym. In fact, we’re going this morning and I will ride the stationary bike for a bit, then walk on the treadmill at approximately the same pace I walk everywhere at my day job. Then I’ll shower and go to said day job.

Now I’m beginning to understand what the problem is. I create these fantastic worlds and scenarios for my characters. My life, while full of quirks, oddities, and mistakes, is still mundane. Mundane. I don’t like that word. It takes the magic out of things, and there is magic in the world whether we can use it or not. Some of our science is like magic, bordering on the edges of incomprehensible, but someone, somewhere still understands how it works. Magic, that’s another beast.

You can use magic. You can write spells and brew potions, but that doesn’t mean you understand why things work. You can think you understand, but the reality is often far different than that.

Which is why we escape to worlds where anything is possible. Where monsters exist and good people do their best to save us. That’s why we play characters in games and chase after some semblance of glory. We want to break down the mundane walls that surround our lives and fill them with something more. It’s also why we idolize people we think lead interesting lives, even if we’re completely wrong about how exciting and wonderful it is to have attention and opportunity.

Maybe I’m just feeling old, like I’ve spent too long at the party. My new characters are starting to have ages younger than my own. Adventuring is a younger person’s game. It’s horrible, painful, and really no way to make a name for yourself, at least not a safe way. You know what? I’ll stick to writing the adventures. It seems safer and if I can make it through the next few weeks, I’ll have a bit more time to work some magic of my own.

I’m really bad at remembering to post to my blog.

Posted in Projects, writing with tags , on December 4, 2011 by generatedanomaly

Been a while. The gaps between posts have been getting longer. Something I need to remedy. While it may not seem important and I rarely have anything deep to say, the exercise of putting my thoughts down is good. And these are my thoughts, not a character’s thoughts, or finely crafted plot. I think that’s an important difference.

So, you may be wondering what I’ve been up to, or you may not really care. If you do, well, I’ve been working, a lot. Almost too much, but that’s neither here nor there. And, I’ve been writing. I cracked 40k on the novel I’m working on (finally). It feels pretty good. I’ve got some more time to write today before I head into work, and a whole three days off this week which will be used to do a mixture of cleaning, writing and playing video games.

The other big thing that happened, I wrote the first script for a collaborative side project between my friend Liz and myself. We’ve been known to come up with some pretty wild ideas and bounce around some hypothetical situations. I wanted to write out what might happen if we actually went through with it all. We need to chat about what to do with it after it’s done. I’m leaning toward the internet (maybe my boyfriend can make us a quick site). Then, we’re off and running.

I’ve got some other plans/ideas swirling around my head. First though, I need to finish the rough draft of this novel. Then it’s off to work on the other things. My goal for 2012 is to sell at least five stories to magazines and figure out my publishing situation. It might be a lofty goal, but I’m up for the challenge.